today was hard

not putting my best face forward, it's hard. i'm bored today. i wonder if i'm doing the right thing. am i good enough. am i really up to the challenge. is this or was this just an escape for a while. am i fearful of re-entering the real world. is the answer to all of the questions, yes. i don't know right now.

i need to get ahold of myself, really.

i feel like i have been abandoned by the world. but is it really just me? or is there some kind of basis for it. or so i make things so much bigger than they are.

i don't know